I feel guilty bc last time I was here I said that i dont like joe anymore and he isn't that smart. He's rly good w/ technical stuff, he has 2 degrees and got straight as. He's just uneducated about things that are imprtant to me, like manic depression. And he's careless sometimes like when he forgets his phone when he goes to work. I do like him. I love him. He's always been there for me. He welcomed me into his home and I feel like apart of his family, like I was with him and his family for the holidays. I hope to have a wonderful future with him. But before we can do that, I need to learn how to control my panic/manic episodes. that is something he can't help me with.